Christmas 2012

Our boy's first Christmas, and it was the best one yet!

We had church in the morning, morning tea with my family, lunch was just the three of us at home and dinner was back at my parents.

Christmas took on a whole new meaning for me this year having our own little baby boy. The fact the the Creator would come down to us in the form of a completely helpless infant, entirely dependant on His own creation, has just been blowing my mind this week.

Carols in the Hills

Hugo's first Christmas carols at church, Sunday the 16th!

4th Anniversary

I love this man.

And three days ago we celebrated four years of marriage.

The 13th may have come and gone without much fanfare this year (we have been a little busy with other things - named Hugo!), no special dinner date, no little getaway and we haven't even exchanged gifts, but it is no less special than any of the years past.

In fact I think it might even be better.

Each year I am married to this man I fall more in love with him, and watching him become a daddy has magnified that love even more.

I am blessed beyond words to have this man in my life, to get to do life with him, to call him my best friend and husband.

Happy 4th wedding anniversary Dave.

I love you!

Learning

This whole parenting thing is such a big change in a persons life, and even though the start we have had really couldn't have been better, there are some challenges and adjustments that have to be made, and lots of learning to be done.

Hugo has really had no trouble with feeding and has been a pretty good sleeper so far. Except for in the evenings up until about 10pm. It's been a challenge to figure out what is causing his disturbance at this time. Is he hungry? is he over tired, does he have wind/gas?

If he's over tired how do I make him sleep more during the day? Some days he just won't sleep in the afternoon. No amount of rocking, cuddling, jiggling, walking will make any difference. All part of learning him and his rhythms.

The idea of leaving the house just for a short while is quite a ridiculous one when you think about all the stuff you have to take, and all that stuff is for ONE TINY baby! Even a small trip requires half an hour of planning beforehand. I just get Dave to stop at the supermarket for me on his way home from work!

Today was the first time I have read a book since Hugo was born. I really had no idea how all consuming this tiny little love would be. Even when he's sleeping, getting through a task is broken up, simply because I check on him every 10 minutes. Simple things take twice as long as they used too.

At first I was really anxious about going out with Hugo, even with Dave coming along too. I was so worried about getting to the middle to Target and having him start crying, and by the time we could get back to the car to feed or change him, he would be hysterical. (this did actually happen on Monday, the poor little thing was so upset by the time I could get to the car to feed him. It was my most horrible parenting moment yet) I was also a little worried about dropping him when getting him in and out of his car seat. Silly I know, but still...

I'm still a little nervous when I go out with him, but I have no problem feeding him in the car, and I always have a plan of where I can feed him when I'm out and about.

I have no doubt that for the rest of my life I will be continually learning this parenting thing, and poor Hugo will forever be the one we try things out on. I just pray that when he is old enough he will know that we have done our best for him. We will make plenty of mistakes, and that breaks my heart to think about, but we will always have his best interest at heart.

One Month

Our boy Hugo has been in our arms for one month as of yesterday.

I can't believe how fast this month has passed by, yet it also feels like we have always had him with us.

I've always known that I wanted to be a mother, but I had no idea of the pure joy that our boy would bring into our lives.

He makes us laugh, hurts our hearts in the best possible way, makes me cry when I think of the incredible, undeserved blessing that he is, and can make me waste away hours simply staring at him, drinking his cuteness.

Hugo becomes more alert each day, and while I love the softness of him, the way he moulds into my arms, and the beauty of this newborn stage, I am looking forward to when he starts to interact more with us, when he smiles in response to us and can hold eye contact for longer periods of time. 

We love you Hugo, our little man!